What do you name a blog entry that is mindless banter? On one hand I've got way too much going on to be maintaining two blogs, on the other hand I need a wee bit of normal routine to calm the waters of chaos I'm currently in. Then if I had another hand to speak of, I don't really have anything in particular to say. If I start speaking about things popping off in my emotions and mind, global warming might could become an instant impact - lol
Every now and then I feel my 'ambition' stir, the fight still there buried under all the "no's" I've heard in the last days, weeks, months, year. Yesterday was overload, today was recovery, tomorrow is back to pushing things, and on my mind is, "will I survive this". Probably, but how I don't know at the moment.
Anger, well, lot's of thoughts swimming around. Newest is how to start a blog in an arena that gets a lot of attention and blast all the politicians, blast AZ, blast the U.S. care of it's citizen's, and while I'm at it blast everyone else who has ever ticked me off. Thoughts of doing serious damage to them. But, as I tell everyone, it's just not in my nature to be vicious, like what I've been dealt by some. Some say that's my downfall. That I should get angry, I should retaliate, I should get revenge. I'm still pondering that :-) Banter.
Discussions of why people do illegal things, like lie to cheat the system to get the needs met. My son came up with a good one last night, and then I heard one today from a lady who helps women leaving domestic violence (long story how I ended up talking to her). It took me an hour to grasp what it was she was hinting at, couldn't actually say, and I'm sure there are lot's of people who do it. Those 'move-in' specials, first month free rent. Move in for the month, be out be end of the month, let them try and find you afterwards. I have to admit not something I would have thought to do, but I can now see how some would do things like that to survive. I read today people are stealing french fry oil to turn into money. On the news tonight someone stole an urn with someone's ashes in it from inside a granite wall for the metal the urn to turn into money. It took some work to break through that granite wall. People stealing gas out of vehicles and RV's. All sorts of strange type thefts these days. While others are wondering why?
In my other blog on world travel, each country I read about how much money the US is sending annually to their countries, in many cases to resolve the poverty, and yet what is being spent in billions for the U.S. people? Not millions going out, three figure BILLIONS to this country, that country, etc. This is just wrong what's going on here. We are just about into what Peru became and is now trying to get back - lost middle class. But it's more than that here in the U.S. There is absolutely no flexibility, no single individual case scenario, all is lumped together and either you meet the stringent regulations, or you don't. To meet those, lie or cheat or know how to work the system. My integrity is all I have left, and I will not sacrifice it. I'll die first with my boots of integrity on :-)