So today I went to the State office to hear what I already knew, but at least I did go. It was very painful, and I was ticked by the time I got in because of how they don't care how long they make people wait. There's nothing the state could offer, I don't qualify, because its so obvious my physical condition in unable to barely walk. There is a 2 year waiting list to get people into 'assisted living', and those who can still work W-2 type jobs come first. A 2 year waiting list to get people into HUD housing, and those have to be employed to get on the list, and throughout the 2 year waiting period. The U.S. government states it takes 6 months to get Disability Income, but expect a full year, and that's after being declared unable to walk for one year, but since my neuropathy is at stage 3.5, they could say my inability to walk has been for a year+ already.
I asked how they expect people to live on that sort of income? Found out because the doors open up when declared "disabled", and things are based on percentages of income, not dollar amounts.
There's no more room for denial, not only do people see me disabled in public, but even the state employees recognize it. I don't know why this is so hard for me to accept. I want to be in denial, but can't be. Every time I go anywhere, reality is in my face (body). This just isn't what I had in mind for my life.
Scanning through the U.S. Disability booklet while listening to the caseworker go down the list of all that as she kept saying, "you already know you don't qualify for", I was shocked to read what has to be done to get Disability Income. Either there is a whole lot of people who try to get that sort of income who don't really apply, or the U.S. government just really isn't 'there' for it's citizens, to warrant the type of qualifying required.
I'm very upset tonight. I'm a native Arizonan and there is nothing this state can do for me. What I observed for the hour I waited in the waiting room, goes hand in hand with the major issues of this country - and state. Let's just say, I was the only white person there, including employees, and that was noticed by all there.
So, for those following along, I have to be moved out in 11 days. There will be a time period when I won't be online. Hopefully a short amount of time. Lot's of packing, thus I won't be accessible much until the dust settles. Such is life. Catch ya'll on the flip-side.