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The Life and Times of one Dark Divah

3/16/10

Little Spaces

I'm often shocked at the little spaces.

There are little spaces of time...little spaces that are meant to hold little things...little spaces where there should be little bits of music playing...little spaces where silence falls and people are always wondering what they should do to fill those little spaces.

I had a few instances of those little silent spaces this past weekend. I won't go into long boring details, but I found myself in the place of wondering who was going to break the silence first.

I like the silences, it's something that I don't get often enough in my day to day life. I rise earlier than the rest of my house so that I can have some silence and be completely selfish with it. I go to bed earlier than the rest of my house so I can find some silence and wind down into slumber within it, but it's that awkward in between silence that always amuses me so.

I think if I was left to my own, I would most likely be able to go days without talking.

However, I have one relationship that is VERY talk dependent and  I don't want to lose a second of that.

Since the last time I was on Delphi, so much has changed for me and even though I am here, it still very much feels like I am looking into a window of my past while at the same time trying to integrate the ME I have become with the ME I used to be. Will I be able to? Not sure... but it's been fun trying.
 

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1/24/10

WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN?

Emily Rose

I have been back on Delphi for a couple of days... some things have changed and some other things have stayed the same. The one thing I hate when I have had an absence and I come back is finding out that I have lost ( literally) some friends and others are ill and it comes with the knowing that there is nothing whatsoever that I could have done to prevent, but it's still a shock to the system nonetheless.

So where have I been?

I have been busy.. that's the simple and short answer. I reached a time in my life where I had to take the bull by the horns so to speak and try to help people in my life get their proverbial ducks in a row. The biggest major happening in my time away has been the birth of my Granddaughter Emily. She is the light in my days and the reason that I am sane most of the time. There is never a truly bad day with her around. She shines, I adore her and until she arrived I never really knew what I was missing. I love her dearly. She is a little girl in a house of testosterone and she had every single member of the male species ( including the dogs) wrapped around her teeny tiny finger.

She's a Leo.. and she is true to the sign... she knows what she wants when she wants it. She knows how she wants it and anything less than your undivided attention will not do when she wants to be paid attention to.

There is some contention with her other grandmother. It's a jealousy thing on her part. I personally could not give a rats ass what she thinks or why, but it is still something that I have had to learn to deal with in the past almost 6 months since Emily's birth.

Her mother has Nephrotic Syndrome of the kidneys, so making sure that Emily arrived healthy was paramount for me. I am happy to report that we accomplished just that and Emily is a healthy, happy and well adjusted little tot. I am also happy to report that her mother is healthier than she ever has been and there are no signs of illness, All of her levels are near normal. Her Nephrologist told her that if he had known that pregnancy was going to help her this much he would have recommended it earlier... to which I say NOT... but I did get his point.

There was a bit of tension in the weeks before Emily arrived... she was measuring very small on ultrasound with an estimated birth weight of only 4.5lbs... she fooled everyone and was born weighing 6lbs 2oz.

Because of steroid use to combat the nephrotic syndrome the umbilical cord was very short and very thick and the placenta looked like grey sand, but the pathology was fine, as was the mom and baby and that in the end is all that matters.

In the months since her birth I have been helping her VERY unprepared parents learn the skills needed to parent her.

She's my angel.. and I ADORE her!

 

Comments (2)

  • 3/1/10 - Lady Angelique (NapaGal16)Welcome back Razi...you were so missed by me. Congrats in becoming a grandmama..
  • 2/15/10 - HedIIWelcome back Razi... and congrats on becoming a grandma!!!
1/21/10

Been a While

It's been a while since I have been around here... So much happened in my life in a short time...

I am not going to go into long explanations or anything of the sort... but I may start writing again...

I didn't think I still had access to this thing...

HA HA
 
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11/7/11  Little Spaces
3/1/10  WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN?
1/21/10  Been a While
1/19/09  The Surgical Report.
4/11/08  Bye- Bye Belly!
4/2/08  24 Days and Counting…
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About the Author
DarkDivah (RaziCichlid)What to say? What to say?
I've been kicking around Delphi since  ohhh about 1999.
I'm an aspiring author and all around nut-job.
I'm a Pagan and my path is wherever my feet happen to take me.
I'm just a little light, just a little dark and a whole lot opinionated.
I'm a free thinker and have no idea whether or not anything I say will be relevant to anyone other than me, but I'm going to say it anyhow.
You can steal my sunshine, but you can't have my thunder.
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