I just thought I would post a little update to let those of
you who regularly check in at my blog; I am alive and I am well and I am 24
days away from having my reconstructive plastic surgery.
I made the decision to stay off of the forums in the time
leading up to my surgery and for most likely a big chunk of the recovery time
because as we all know, from time to time we can become perhaps overly
emotionally invested and that, no matter if we like to admit it or not, does
tax on us in ways that we aren’t even aware of some of the time.
I’ve decided that while I am so grateful for the well wishes and prayers and
healing vibes showered unto me by others, this is a time when I must be a
little introspective, as serene as possible considering all the variables in my
life as of late, and as someone I adore and I like to put it, finding my
wuuu-saaa.
I have had moments of anticipation in regards to what is to come and there have
been moments of anxiety mixed with excitement that are sprinkled with just a
slight helping of fear.
This coming Wednesday, I stop all my medications, save for Tylenol, and the
real fun begins. Learning to manage the pre-surgery pain will be a testament to
the post surgical hill I will have to climb.
It’s not going to be easy, in fact I
dare say that this might be one of the hardest things I have ever done in my
life, but I am determined to do my very best to give myself the best possible
outcome and the best possible outcome is contingent upon me eating right, resting
well and keeping positive.
In many ways this feels a lot like the countdown to Santa
Claus...and I’m the little girl tucked under the covers who is only pretending
to be asleep in hopes to catch a glimpse of the jolly old elf himself.