Something I wrote on a forum today made me think of you. I’m
sorry I haven’t been to see you in a while, but my life has been a little bit of
crazy in the last little while. I am aching to get out there and cradle that
sweet baby girl that has come into your life. You are going to be a fantastic
Grand mother, I know this for a fact because of the love you have always shown
Remember all the years you made me birthday cakes? I remember them, white cake with raisins, jam
center and chocolate frosting. When I
turned 16 I asked you to stop making them, but I would give my right arm for
one of those cakes this year.
I miss you. I miss hearing you laugh and I miss hearing you sing and even
though I no longer follow the faith I was raised in, I miss going to church
with you. Sunday was always a fun day with you and when I close my eyes and
allow myself to go back I can easily recall exactly how your perfume smelled as
it gently wafted after you as you scurried yourself around trying to get the
boys ready to go.
You and my God Father- may the Gods keep him well in their
care- took me in when I had nowhere else to go. I know I played my God daughter
card just right when I put you on the spot, and you didn’t let me down because
you kept the promises that you made when you stood for me at my baptism as an
infant. I will always be grateful for having you in my corner.
I know becoming an instant mother to a
teenaged girl who was rather head strong and not quite on the right path wasn’t
an easy thing for you to do, but you kept me safe, made me feel loved and
treated me as if I had always been a member of your household and my darling
Uncle, whom I miss so much that it moves me to tears, gave me the one thing that
a teenaged wayward girl was missing in her life. He gave me the loving support
of a father. I will never forget the morning I saw him in his underwear, he
acted as if I’d caught him stark naked, he was mortified and I nearly fell down
the stairs laughing.
When the call came that told me of his passing, I could not get “home” fast
enough. I knew with everything that was in me that you would need me there and
I made my husband take time off work to stay with the kids because my place was
at your side. I know that some of the
family members didn’t like it when I stormed in and took the reigns, but I did
what needed to be done to honor my uncle and the biggest compliment given to me
was the day you told everyone that you would never have survived that time had
it not been for me.
I’m glad I got to give back one ounce of what you have given to me.
I love you and I miss you and I PROMISE that I will move
heaven and earth to see you before the holidays are over.
~your God Daughter…