Since I didn't blog for a day ( a common thing that happens since life gets in the way) you probably think that I just sat around yesterday. My daughter only wishes that were true! Instead, I took her on a 3 mile "walk" on a nature trail. Lucky for her it led to a park, unlucky for us our car was still 1 1/2 miles away! LOL I thought she'd enjoy the nature scene but she is very afraid of butterflies (she's almost 10) and freaked out every time she saw one. She also talked my ear off the whole time but I still enjoyed the time with her while my son was at his last day of VBS.

So that was 6 laps on Thursday (which DH told me is 1 3/4 miles), 3 miles yesterday and I just got back from 5 laps today which is 1 1/2 miles. My dogs are barking!! I need new shoes. DH told me to take it easy and don't exercise every day. Um...no, I want to walk every day. I don't want to have diabetes so I want to walk. I told him I would like to try and get up and walk while he's getting ready for work. I think I can do it. I also need to get my bike fixed so I can alternate the muscles I use. And take some pressure off my left ankle. I broke a small bone in it 4 years ago tripping over Nathan as he threw a fit in the library. Had x-rays and all and was given an ankle brace. I wore it when I worked in retail but my children have since destroyed it. My ankle swells up if I'm standing too long. So it's been the size of a baseball each evening the last few nights. Fun times.

The eating is still an issue. I'm trying to do better during the day but at night I'm generally pretty hungry. I'm going to focus on the exercise for now and once I get into that routine, I will focus on the eating. I have made better choices here and there, one helping instead of 2, halfing a drink with my daughter, smaller portions.

I'm a work in progress. I'm also reading "Half Assed" which is a weight loss memoir written by this woman who was over 300 pounds. She finally just made the decision to change. She's had some slip-ups along the way but I have to believe she really was half her size since she wrote a book about it. I've not finished it yet.

I can't believe someone found my blog. I appreciate the comment, I do try and do things for myself. My low self-esteem was my birthright, my mom has made sure of that. But I know I'm blessed with my husband and children and the 2000 miles distance between my mother and me. And they are blessed to have me. I'm working to get me back. And I do love school. Wish I was able to do my externship now but I value this time with the kids since it will probably be my last stay at home summer for sometime.

Anyway, I'm still here...chugging along. I don't want diabetes. I don't care about fitting into smaller clothes or having a pretty face, I don't want diabetes. That's my goal.